The amazing adventures .....

of Dietgirl. www.dietgirl.org

I have been reading this fabulous blog for the past couple of years now. Shauna is a wonderful, inspirational, funny and talented lady who not only has lost half her weight but has published a book and contributed to a book about her ups and downs with her "lard busting".

I have been looking forward to reading this book for ages and have spent the past 2 days laughing and crying at her insightful way of putting her thoughts to blog. There was many times during the book that I welled up with tears, laughed out loud and shook my head wondering how she could read my thoughts. By reading her adventures it makes me realise that I am not alone with this weight loss caper - there are others out there that go through the same insane thoughts (no offense Shauna). I have a "friend" of mine (and I use that term lightly at the moment) who has called my thoughts about weight loss and my opinion that it hasn't changed my life, stupid and silly. I know at times they are insane however they are there and they are my feelings. It is just fabulous to see that someone else has been through what I am going through. The feeling of unworthiness, the thought that I am inferior to those who are thinner and the fact that I don't feel as though I can celebrate what I have accomplished.

I really cried at the part where she described how she had hidden herself away from everyone and let her weight take over parts of her life. That is what I have done. I have let my weight dictate my social life and made me a hermit. Not so much anymore however I can't remember going anywhere before I started to lose this weight. It was always the thoughts of not being able to fit into any decent clothes or not being able to fit into the seats that dictated my life. I can see that I avoided lots of things because of my weight. I also avoided getting close to anyone. I still don't feel as though I can open up to anyone completely however the thought of telling someone my 'insane/stupid/silly" feelings no longer makes me want to throw up.

Thank you Shauna for your blog. Thank you for writing the book. Thank you for putting into print the things that I feel on a daily basis. Perhaps my feelings are so stupid after all.

Onwards and downwards.